Dear diary

Who would want to be with a girl like me? I mean all I do is nag and complain and find fault and get jealous and read into every little detail and live in a dream world and and and…the list goes on. Everything you don’t want in a girl I probably am. The only thing I’m good for is a shag! Even that I know I’m not the best there ever is but hey, I’m willing to try anything in that department. Oh and by far the worst thing about me are my insecurities (as this entry suggests).  So why me?  

The big "O"

Just last month my cousins and I decided to have a girl’s night out and we went to the sexpo.  We got ourselves the VIP tickets for the Friday evening.  The VIP tickets came with a goodie bag and one of my favourite things in it is the vibrator. I couldn’t wait to get out of there and go try this new gadget with my partner, even more so because I’ve always wanted to own one of these. Now this is a mini lip stick shaped vibrator but the power it possesses is amazing, or perhaps the person operating it is/was amazing (my boyfriend).

I got to my partners place just before midnight and without further ado we got down and dirty. And talk about phenomenal sex that was. The orgasm I experienced from that vibrator was just unbelievable. I’ve had orgasms before but non like this, it literally had me in tears.  I even thought I was going to squirt; yep that’s how intense it was. But luckily I didn’t I think that’s the most embarrassing thing ever and no I’ve never went through that experience before.

So basically ladies and gentlemen don’t trash something till you have tried it. It could be the complete opposite of what you expected. I tried the vibrator and “oh yessss” I plan on using it again.

 

know your body

So I met a really honest friend during my first year. She is so honest in fact that after just months of being friends she asked how bad should or does a punani smell. “Dzamn” you should have seen the look on my face, my eyes were wide open in shock. I asked her to rephrase the question and she sternly said “I know a virgina smells but how bad is bad?”

Now I didn’t know and still don’t know how to answer this question but I think every person knows their scent and when you think it doesn’t smell as it normally does then you should check with your Gp.

The reason I thought of this daring question is because I’m thinking of visiting my family doctor for a pap smear and I can’t imagine what they and gynaecologists go through when dealing with patients. I don’t blame some doctors who only do them (pap smears) in the morning. After a couple of hours in this heat...things are bound to get nasty.  

You have hair where?

Ok so I’m a pretty hairy lady and as a result I shave every week. But I’ve had a burning question which I could never bring myself to ask anyone. “how far back does/should one shave when shaving your pubs?”  by how far back I mean as in when it gets to your ass crack (not all the way).

Actually for a while I thought I was the only one who had a bit of hair that far back until…ok I’m not going to tell that story.  To be honest the reason I haven’t removed that hair is because I can’t imagine myself having to remove it every time I shave. Then there is that myth that every time you shave your hair grows longer…lol nah hey.  Now ladies and gentlemen how far do you go?

Those three words

I watched a movie titled “How do you know” which is really about a woman trying to find out how does one know when he/she is in love? This is exactly what I’d like to know. I’m sure you’ve said “I love you” to most of the people you’ve dated but how many times did you really mean it?

 I’ve come to realise that while you are with that person you think you’re “in love” but probably aren’t. Just because they give u butterflies or make u laugh doesn’t mean its love. But then again what is love? Some say we tend to say “I love you” too soon in a relationship. “Eeeh” how soon is too soon?  Others say when you know, you know. Well I would really like to know now.

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Is it really just about hearing the words or would you rather be shown? Let’s not lie to ourselves here; the one honestly doesn’t make sense without the other. Hey if u feel you’re in love go right ahead and do what you got to do, but don’t be bummed if the feeling aint mutual >>awkward moment<<. 

My kindda guy

Truth be told most women don’t want a man they can walk all over. What is the point of having a partner if he is just going to agree with everything you say? Might as well get a child who will simply take instructions. On the other hand no one wants someone who will disagree with everything they say either. We need partners who can balance things out and therefore should be able to say “no” when necessary and “yes” where applicable.

Screw independence and what not a man still needs to be a man and thus needs some sense of authority. I’m a very tiny woman who can stand her own when need be but I want a real man, someone who can “put me in my place” so to speak. There is nothing sexier than a dominant man…in all ways possible >>wink<<.

Oops

“That awkward moment...” when I eagerly greet an ex while walking with my current boyfriend.  Thank God I’ve got a mature and understanding guy by my side coz Lord knows if the tables were turned I would have walked back and asked to be taken home, without giving anybody a chance to explain.

So as I embarrassingly tell my cousin about the incident she quickly came up with an excuse “ah if he (my current partner) had a problem you would have just told him that you were showing him off”. Doubt I would have thought of that but luckily enough I didn’t need an excuse; I was merely greeting someone I haven’t seen in a while, ex of nie.
(image by Francis Bea http://www.digitaltrends.com/social-media/infographic-social-medias-influence-on-infidelity/)